""it is late afternoon""

i kept wonderin what was wrong.. i kept thinking if what was obvious was right or just a Total Internal Reflection of this mindset, not easy to comprehend.. not even 9 ppl out of 60, who could tolerate me?? lol.. managed 5, out of which only 1 was guaranteed since beginning.. signed some treaties n it was over.. some 18 hours ago, told her what i should have told her ages ago.. she didnt like it i suppose.. after all, not many like others to show them mirror, but again depends if u r holding the mirror horizontally or vertically.. i hated myself for what i had been all these years.. thought of you for sometime n it pacified my mind, as always.. only thing i could do, was to go out, lookin for what i promised u.. after 78 kms on odometer and 13 nurseries, still couldnt find something as pretty as u.. came back dejected and disappointed.. mind is as restless as i could ever remember.. IIMC fails to provide what i have been expecting.. everything seems to be going wrong.. you seem to be the only saving grace.. as always, came back n stared at u before it all started to look ok.. thanks.. dont know how far it would go, but you surely do make everything look easy everytime.. n i want them to be easy, ALWAYS..